F E M M E T J E
May 2010
The Complex of Asian-Americans
It’s almost the same for all of us, but that doesn’t make it any less of a struggle.
You’re an outsider in the country you live in, and the country you’re “from”. I’m not comfortable being in places where everyone is Chinese and speaking Cantonese, just as I am not comfortable when I’m the only Asian around. Maybe that’s why I’ll never escape international cities where even though there are social tensions, at least cultural/ethnic/racial diversity exists.
i miss taking the f train at 4:30 in the morning and taking off high heels before i sneak into the house real quiet. i miss blowing all my money on midnight pierogis, talking shit with phoebe. i miss bad impulses and doing dumb shit with my friends.
Don’t worry babylove, we’ll be reunited in a few weeks. We’ll shoot the breeze along the ocean, in pools during rainstorms, get our nails did, I’ll remind you of your hood roots and it’ll all be golden. <3
Anything that you want me to bring you from NYC/HKG? I can’t bring boys but maybe cigarettes will do? Ahahaha.
if you bring me back some lil baby dick i will be very displeased. I like jewelry.. and food, and azn peach flavored things. I havent smoked since my birthday, I’m trying this new thing where I’m twenty and that means I shouldnt smoke anymore. It’s working out so far. (Who knew I had willpower?!!! <—-is that a sign of maturity?..what?) I have a feeling that your visit will somehow dissuade me.
Yeah, well, I have plenty of willpower, and I have the willpower not to steal all my father’s Marlboros. I think there’s at least a pack waiting for him in every location in the house/office/car that he spends time. Oy vey. I haven’t gone shopping shopping yet, but soon enough. Trying to wait until the weekday so it’s not as crazy. The mangoes here are amazing. They’re smooth and buttery and the sweetest things ever. Probs from Thailand. They’re the reason why I can’t eat them in the states because too often they’re fibery/stringy. Spoiled. I felt you’d appreciate that.
And regarding camwhoring in bikinis… Dude, I hate myself in bikinis. Rather do it nude. JK. But really, you can if you want… o.0
i miss taking the f train at 4:30 in the morning and taking off high heels before i sneak into the house real quiet. i miss blowing all my money on midnight pierogis, talking shit with phoebe. i miss bad impulses and doing dumb shit with my friends.
Don’t worry babylove, we’ll be reunited in a few weeks. We’ll shoot the breeze along the ocean, in pools during rainstorms, get our nails did, I’ll remind you of your hood roots and it’ll all be golden. <3
Anything that you want me to bring you from NYC/HKG? I can’t bring boys but maybe cigarettes will do? Ahahaha.